“People only see what they are prepared to see.”
~Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 – 1882)
Philosopher, Essayist & Poet
There were/are numerous times in my life this quote has enlightened me to defective relationships, weight/health awareness, responsibility, conquering fear, failure and Then some! Its so simple yet so deep…kinda like me (at least I think so)

The 21st Century has dawned upon us…let us embrace our fellow brothers and sisters across international waters. WORLD PEACE should be everyone’s resolution!
United we stand…Divided we fall!
1. For the first time I can truly say that I’m so over NY…our love hate relationship is fizzing out. I just can’t see myself residing there without a purpose. It’s quite possible that ATL has totally grown on me, my roots will forever be in Brooklyn NY but home is where my heart is… for now that’s ATL until he come’s a knocking! For the record my love for ATL has nothing to do with neither a person nor a love interest …it just is and it makes me happy. *Smiling*
2. I’ve learn that forgiving those that’s wronged me is very liberating whether they know it or not…I have no room in my head/heart for the petty BS. Karma is a bitch and she will show up at your door step eventually, believe me she knows your address! *Smirk*
3. I am my harshest critic and I thrive to perfect all that I do even if it kills me (shoot bootcamp almost killed me last year) and I had to forgo that per doctor’s orders…lol I’m now embarking on this spinning thing. LOVE LOVE LOVE www.KTXFitness.com
4. I’m currently working on my body/health for now, I’ve altered my eating habits by going semi-organic and slowly phasing pork and red meat out of my life, I also stopped drinking juice except for OJ that IS the hardest thing ever. (TIPS: to phase juices out of your life I dilute everything with Pellegrino {Perrier has too much sodium and you can taste it}, I have several bottles of Pellegrino in my fridge. I also dip flavored tea bags in my water bottles for variety…I had to get creative) Wish me luck!
5. I cry and sob terribly when I see/hear sad stories or disabled and/or less fortunate individuals in the media and autobiographic movies. Therefore I may crumble upon viewing the movie Precious. :-/
6. Recently I had to report a (de)friend (for the 1st time) to Facebook for posting a live suicide video on his wall…it had me so emotional distraught, I had to call my BFF to calm me down and bring me back to my normal state. :-(
7. I need to stop the constant battle with my boobies…one day I love ‘em other days I’m ready to send ‘em to the butcher shop & chop chop chop. One of these days I’ll come to terms with them. :-/
8. Turning 35 terrified the heck out of me and shook me to my very core. But I’m ok now…REALLY I am! *Sigh*
9. I overpromise and under deliver! I’m constantly battling with learning how to share myself with all the special people in my life. Please be patient with me, I’m learning…there’s only one of me and I don’t want to disappoint y’all! I will make room for our QT, please bear with me, I don’t want to lose y’all! (((HUGS)))
10. It’s been brought to my attention that I can be intimidating to many (both males/females). It’s not my intention and I apologize, “I think”…But do I seriously have to censor my mouth and thoughts for everyone, wouldn’t that constitute changing what makes me “Randy”?
11. I wish my little sister that’s been married for 4+ years would get pregnant and give my mom her first grandchild already…so the chick would lay off me. GEEZE (If y’all know my sister Tharah or her husband Paul please put a bug in their ear, cuz I’m thru talking about this shit!)
12. I have no tattoos and I don’t think I could ever get one…yup I’m a punk. Nope y’all can’t talk me into getting one. No artistic enhancement here unless it involves a Board Certified Plastic Surgeon. *wink - wink*
13. I love and appreciate all the men that have entered, left, lingered , re-entered and stayed in my life… those that loved and those that hurt me. I appreciate a piece in all of you, for teaching me how to trust, love, forgive, nurture, discover my spiritual connection, grow into the woman that I am today and most importantly how to let go. The most influential men in my live would have to be Randolph aka Randy and my ex-fiancé Jerome (no longer speak to him), that’s not to downplay the others but those 2 have been a permanent fixture of my very being. *Sniff-Sniff*
14. I am truly fortunate and blessed to have a strong group of friends that honestly love and support me, all of me the feisty, sassy, Randy Pandy!
15. Contrary to popular believe, I’m a home body, I struggle to get dressed for the nightlife…95% of the time I’d rather stay home lounging on my couch sipping wine or tea while watching TV, movies or reading my very well orchestrated magazine collection. (I hate it when ____ come’s over and rearranges my magazine after flipping thru them…argh)
16. Back to my crying phase…I want to get my Angolina/Madona on by going to Haiti and adopting orphans…don’t ask me why. It freaking brings tears to my eyes to see my people suffer *crying* Dammmit…I hate crying, thankfully I don’t have any make up on today so!
17. To piggy back on #16, I would also like to start a non-profit organization that would enable adoption of the orphan kids in Haiti. All the organization that are offering these services are doing so for the sole purpose of getting $$$. The fees to adopt abroad are in the neighborhood of $25,000++ WTF!
18. I hate soda and I never ever drink it, not even when I had a frequent member card to McDs.
19. I’ve never smoked, I guess you can call me a goodie two-shoes *Kanye Shrug* I don’t care what you think. It never interested me and at this point in my life… WHAT’S THE POINT OF EVEN TRYING IT NOW?
20. It’s February and I can confidently say I haven’t engaged in any sexual activity thus far *Kanye Shrug* DON’T JUDGE ME. ;) lmao

Dear This That & Then Some,
Please accept my sincerest apologies for my shameful neglect and the broken promises to update and share my ramblings with you. I know I haven’t been treating you as well as I’m capable of. I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me as I will make time in my hectic schedule to treat you like the one and only blog that matters to me most….STAY TUNED!!!
Much Love Always!
Your Mama :)

I’m sorry if my passionate confidence stance rubs you the wrong way… but please be mindful that if we don’t stand for something we will all fall for anything.
I’m sorry for not being sensitive to your situation… but sometimes I simply can’t be a dumping ground for the bad…try and share the good with me as well.
I’m sorry for not being has attracted to you as I would like to be… sometimes things will happen in due time.
I’m sorry that I had to see your true colors…yet I still choose to keep you in my life eventhough I know you cause me more harm than good.
I’m sorry for hurting, offending and/or disappointing you… for it was not my intention.
I’m sorry for not agreeing with you… but you must know my friendship has loyalties to you not your point of views, we can agree to disagree.
I’m sorry that you can’t see or feel how much I care…but I hope and pray that one day you will.
I’m sorry that I’m misunderstood… if you look beyond my exterior, you will see that I cry, hurt, fall and fail just like everyone else.
I’m sorry that I can’t speak to you in your language…although we both speak English, we communicate very differently.
I’m sorry that you have to endure your silent pain and suffering alone…I wish I could take one day a week to help you carry the burden.
I’m sorry that you are so far away from my touch… but you will never be too far from my heart.
I’m sorry that we had to separate the way we did… but sometimes in life we must let go of things and people to set them ourselves free, no matter how good it/they makes us feel.
I’m sorry if you had the wrong impression of me…when will we learn to stop judging a book by its cover?
I’m sorry for a lot of things BUT I am NOT sorry for being consistent with all that I am!
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